Blog Post

I don't really want to talk about things, but may be I will rant about some. Let us just see where my fingers will lead this post.

"The magic moment is the moment when a "yes" or a "no" can change our whole existence. "

Got this statement from Jen's post. Well, let us start with that quote. True! Every decision leads us to something. It may be right or wrong, good or bad, for you or for the people around you. The things is, decisions can be powerful and it can change "your whole existence". And I think I just made a some-kind-of-a-like-that decision.

The story:

More or less, a week before the "Ms. UP Cebu 2010" screening, my friends tried to convince me to screen for the said pageant. Their means of convincing me were *please insert adjective here*. They were persistent in a way, but I always said NO! to them. Joining pageants is really not part of my to-do's in life and being on a spotlight is a no-no. As days came, their convincing strategy got more *insert another adjective here*. I thought I could evade their thing-for-that-thing forever, but I was slightly wrong. Just when I thought the "fight" was over, the real challenge came. We were on our way home, when I met Ella. I did not notice her until she grabbed my hand and dragged me all the way to the multimedia room where the screening will be held. At first, I tried to escape using force but it was in vain. So it thought, that I would just follow her to the venue and then escape when she's busy. But unfortunately, I did not succeed. I was there an hour before the call time, and everything was prepared, the dress, the makeup, etc. (Those things were not prepared for me alone, but they were all there.) After everything was prepared, I just sat there, and watched as more people poured in the room. Everyone was busy with their make over, and the production team was also busy. Moments later, the time came for the screening, and I was so nervous. During the interview, I really think that my answers were weird and lame. I was so nervous that I forgot some things that I did during that time. After that 10-minute encounter with the judges, my head felt like it's going to break anytime. I'm guessing, it's a nervous-breakdown. Wasn't it? I was just so glad that it ended.

It was Tuesday when the official list of candidates were posted, and unexpectedly, my name was there. I was half-happy, half-sad. Half-happy because the experience was worth it. Half-sad because my answer would still be no. I did not expect to pass the screening, and I was really firm with my decision. But after some talk with myself (crazy, huh?) and with God, I came to think that maybe it would be fun. I tried to think it over, and so came my final decision. I 'd say yes for the pre-pageant and post-pageant activities, but no for the question and answer portion during the pageant night. Right? Right!

Dear Readers,
Sorry for the lame post and confusing sentence structures, wrong grammar, and everything else. Feel free to comment about my poor grammar and sentence skills.
Thank you for your kind consideration.
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P.S. This post is unfinished, some words were stuck in my brain and my fingers are tired, and I am sleepy. @_@